Rockstar! Not Me!

We all have our dreams of being "The Rockstar" in our lives, yet somehow some of us are too shy to show our skills publicly. Yeah many of us are Bathroom Singers, Table Drummers, Air Guitarists and Violin Concertmasters and live in our world of music. Why we act like this? No serious explanation can ever be given for this question. We just don't care about the society, we play it for ourselves, because it takes away pain for some of us, gives joy to some of us, and for rest of us we get a hobby for ourselves. 

So here I am joining the league of Unheard Musicians. Yes, I sing my own songs, sometimes loud as well. Trust me I am not at all a good singer, but yeah in my world I  rock. So to live up to the spirits of our League of Unheard Musicians, here is a song which is ringing in my head. How I came up with this song? I had my examination today, and although it being very simple, was still Greek and Latin to me. And then, when I came back to my room, and started composing my first song. As I previously said, I am not a psycho, I am just a dreamer. The song goes like this:

Kill Me Now!!

Kill Me! Kill Me Now! [x2]
Coz I'm in pain...

Kill Me Now! [x2]
Coz I'm in pain...
For reasons....
that I can't...explain...
For people...
Who'll always...complain..


So Kill Me!
Kill Me Now! 
Coz I'm in pain...
And Yeah..
I'm a little.. insane...


And Hurt Me!
Hurt Me Now!
Coz I'm in pain...
For life...
From which I...can't refrain..
For feelings..
That I can't..drain...


So Kill Me! 
Kill me now!
Coz I'm in pain...
And Yeah..
I'm quite.. insane...

Kill Me Now! [x2]
Coz I'm in pain...
For work...
that I do..and is lame.
For Mistakes...
for which I'm.. to blame

So Kill Me! 
Kill me now!
Coz I'm in pain...
And Yeah..
I'm totally.. insane...

And Hurt Me!
Hurt Me Now!
Coz I'm in pain...
For exams..
From which I..have nothing to gain..
For teachers...
which made me...detain..

So Just Kill Me!
Kill Me Now!
And Hurt Me!
Hurt Me Now!
Coz I'm in pain
And yeah
I'm not at all...sane...

And Fill Me!
Fill Me Now! [x2]
With All The World's Pain....
And Kill Me. Kill Me Now! 
Just Kill Me. Kill Me......Now!

I'm no superman!

 

Yes, I believe that every fresh start has to be a heroic story, Hollywood style, to build the interests of the first time readers. So the big question is "Who doesn't like having superpowers, having something great which no one else has?". I guess now I can relate this to my B-School Induction in which I was asked "What is your USP" and yeah all of us would have loved to answer  this "Yeah I am like Superman!". 

So here it goes, as we were little novice kids, any new idea that was shown to us, created a inquisition in our little minds. For instance when I saw Ramayan for the first time, I faintly remember I was four then, I conventionally challenged the fact that how can Hanuman Ji fly. Because I never thought something like this was possible. But yet again when heroic stories are told, rationality cannot come in picture. And since our parents, friends, everyone believes in Supernatural God Powers, no one denies it. Then you too somehow believe this. And once you accept this such things can happen, you start dreaming things you can do if you possessed these powers.

Some of us like being the Superman, saving the city, helping the people Some of us like destruction of objects, being the best Conqueror, stealing money from banks. Some of us just like to take a chill, be able to fly around with the girl of our dreams, enjoy exotic places, to be able to discover those truths which no one knows. Again all these kind of actions depend on what one wants to perform or associates best with self. Since we are the masters of our dream world, all the rules and regulations are decided by our inner self. So the question of right or wrong is tackled by our own Department of Justice sitting inside our heads. 

Dreams are collections of thoughts that socially or environmentally have touched or influenced us in some way or the other. So if snakes fear us during our sleep, it is because you heard a story about a snake bite two days before, and thus can be attributed to it. If you are feared of heights, and you come across a newspaper reading about someone committing a suicide by jumping from a tower, your fear gets much bigger in your dreams. Once this collection becomes huge as we grow old, the direct attribution to any previously heard stories, watching on television, etc. cannot be made. Because the dream world starts getting more and more complex, with the new rules that you have started to accept. Thus functionality of superpowers and their control is decided by our rational dream mind. 

So I know I'm no Superman, yet in my dreams, I am!